As I consume more content regarding PMDD, I don't know why I didn't do more research back then. Maybe because I thought it was only a little worse than PMS and every menstruating person went through it, and I was just more maladaptive. Maybe it was usually enough to take extra SSRI's before my period. Maybe because the only acknowledgement I got from people noticing my symptoms was in the from of them asking me if my period was coming or if I've taken extra meds yet.
Or maybe it was too hard to tell how much of it was seasonal affective disorder.
Or maybe because I finally have a menstruating PNP.
Or maybe because I'm not spending all my time watching a young puppy.
And not getting a solids night's rest for over a year.