I'm supposed to document my mood and phases. I think 0 is bad, and 10 is unrealistically optimistic.
I had a great time at a drag show but started tearing up.
The night before, I was awake roughly from 3-6am, just remembering all the times I let myself be disrespected. I didn't get going til 11am/noon. Partially bc I didnt sleep. Partially bc I wasnt gonna take my meds if it kept me from sleeping. I opted to take half later in the day to ensure I followed through on plans.
I admitted to someone that my hyperfixation is to never come out this deeply resentful again after a long term relationship.